Jealousy...

There are times.. I just feel jealous at many things. Sometimes I even ask God why HE puts me in such a situation..

In situations like now, sometimes I feel envious. Angry. Why is it, I can't get something I slogged so hard for... yet someone else got it without so much as lifting a finger? Sometimes I feel it so hard to overcome such feelings of jealousy, envy... and even hatred. Sometimes I'm tempted to put it down as sour grapes..

Sigh.. I really feel so lost, so miserable.. In this case, it's very much a matter of pride for me..

Feeling really down now. Battling between what's right and what I want.